A Disciple’s Prayer (2nd Edition – 2012)
Lord,
every year I come before You at my birthday to thank You for the gift of life
and to x-ray my nothingness before You, asking You to make me something for
Yourself.
I
have come to discover that the nearer I try to come to You, the more distant I
find myself from You because in my righteousness, I make one step towards You and
in my sinfulness I make two steps away from You. I am seriously worried by this
situation and I call for Your intervention. I am filled with shame each time I
draw closer to You because:
If
anybody has disappointed You, I am the one.
If
You regret creating man, I am the cause of the regret.
If
anyone deserves Your justice, I am the one.
If
anyone deserves Your mercy, I am far from such one.
If
sinners deserve hell, I deserve the worst of hell
If
I had loved You, I would have obeyed Your will
I
hated you at those times I ignored Your will and did my will.
Yet Your love for me increased.
